the power of conversation

So this is a new thing for me, its after midnight, baby is sleeping soundly while the boys (yes hubby too) are crashed out in the tent in the backyard. You'd think I'd use this quiet time to do something quiet like sleep, but no I decided to start a blog. Not too sure what I'll write on here, perhaps just the day to day activites, or use this as my diary of sorts, or maybe my exercise accountability. Whatever comes of it, as long as my typing and spelling improve then it won't be a total loss.

Having kids....love it - but parenting is hard. My hubby and I were talking about money and the future, always a great conversation to get into I know; anyway, the conversation went something like this.

"I don't fell we are saving very much month to month, when do you think we can retire? When do you think the mortgage will be paid off? We make great money and we are fortunate to have you at home with the kids, but is going to school the right thing for you/us right now? We never were like this years ago?" I kept thinking that was all before we had kids. So much has changed from those moments, and I know neither one of us would change things to the way it was in the past but I'm sure if we had that crystal ball we could relax some.

I'm getting to the paretning bit; we talked some more, while our 6 yr old and friend played on the Wii, the 3 and 18 month old jumped on the couches screaming at the top of their lungs, and we drank wine while preparing dinner. Multitasking at its best, a must have skill when being a parent. I was trying to tell my hubby that these are the times when most are cash strapped. In the past we were dinks (double income no kids), we had no one to answer to but ourselves. Now we have 3 to answer to, teach, dress, consoul, love, cherish, and the biggest disclipine. We can't compare life to what it once was. We now have to live for the present and hope that we make the right decisions for our kids and their future...to which his response would be; why do you think we are talking about this now? Yes dear it does all intertwine, like everything we do, it always relates back to the family and parenting.

So what was tthe outcome of the conversation? Dinner was ready, friend went home (which resulted in some tears), then it was on to the tent and movie night in the yard. Nothing was concluded 'cause we had to tend to the kids.

Its late I need sleep so I can function tomorrow. The boys will be up with the birds, and hubby will be looking to me for help. I hope I can ge on here regurarly, its kind of nice to talk to no one and get my thoughts out, even if they are totally all over the map. Until tomorrow, nite.